Heart broken.

Hellooo guy! It's a long time since I have wrote on this blog .
Do u guys know . I have become a father already . Fast rite? I know u all will jealous about it . HAHAHA!!! It's so hard broken whenever u say I have lied to u when I really never . I'm innocent . I did nth wrong . My heart was like there is a knife stab into my heart . I really did nth wrong . I jus wanted a simple couple life . I dun quarrel. Hais .

心碎的声音听不到.

Hi . Sudden urge of blogging after reading back all the post you used to blog for me. After some time being together , we been together for 1 year & 7 months already uh? HAHAHA . Time passéd so fast and this month gonna be our 1 year & 8 month being together but why do I feel so empty ? You said you didn't know how to sweet talk or post long message and stuff to me but you used* to , ohya I mean really used to . You could blog for me , write for me , call me just to tell me I love you but why did you stopped doing it . Because we been together for long and there isn't any needs to do so anymore , because you been seeing me everyday as we are staying together so things started fading and changing , because you are tired of showing me how much you loved me and how much you cared ? Our first quarrel became something normal these day , crying alone waiting for you to come and just hug me for a moment became a daily routine . Worse still you can't even be bother with me at times . I don't want you to fall asleep before I sleep but do you know why ? I tend to think a lot during night or even during the day. I don't want to feel alone , I want you to stay beside me , watching me to let me feel secure. You remember the first time you promised me you will never leave me alone crying when we were just together for 2montha + . Remember the first time I shouted and cried like a mad dog because of celena ? The very first time I showed you attitude and ya that happened to be the first time you told me not to be crazy . Remember the first time you shouted at me ? Telling me you had enough for me ? @ marina square . Can you feel how heartbroken was I back then ? Everything started changing as time pass , augments became our daily routine , memories fading , love and care getting lesser . It been a long time since I really laughed really smile because I'm happy . Yes all along I been showing that I'm happy but you know what ? I'm not , I couldn't find back the smile I used to have anymore . Be it how much I try , how much I smile I know things have changed , you changed , our love changed , I changed . Remember the first time you promised not to leave me alone because of maxtune ? Remember the first time you thrown away your cards for me & you told me you want me to stay ? Broken promises* The longer we get together the more often i use to sit beside you spending hours watching you playing maxtune . Do you know I been crying all day long , every single night , every single quarrel . How much my heart hurt whenever I say those harsh words to you ? But that's the only way I left to protect myself , I'm selfish . I'm tired I don't want to get myself hurt anymore that's why I choose to hurt you with my words than remaining silent but that doesn't help , it still break my heart like hell . You know I'm so afraid of you leaving some day ? Because I know you will . Take it as I'm assuming but that's how you showed me . I asked you to leave , to go back to your place , I say that I don't want to see you anymore but do you know each time i said that I'm so afraid of you being serious of what I say and leave . Whenever you hug me and I pushed you away , do you know actually I just wanted to protect myself by letting you feel that I don't need anyone to pity me and the moment you let go , how fucking down I'm ? I'm feel so unstable with you , so insecure , I have so much to say yet I know you wouldn't understand . I'm unreasonable , I aren't understanding , I know you been tolerating all along . I'm sorry for all the things I did to hurt you. I know I obviously got no right to request anything from you & I don't deserve you and the things you did for me . If I could choose again , I would leave 1 year & 7 months back , I wouldn't talk to you not because I regret but because I know we wouldn't come to this state now. I know you won't bother reading this post or maybe you won't even know this post existed so let's all not bother . I just wanna make myself feel better that's all.

Day by Day Have Pass, My Jealousy For You Have Become Higher And Higher.

Hellooo Guys, I'm back to blog due to my sillybaby wanna see and called me to update! (Y) For pass few day i have quarrel with baby due to my jealousy is getting higher and higher. sorry baby, i know you dun like jealousy high person but i need to tell you this. i have never ever know that my jealousy can be to my extend. due to my love for you is getting deeper and deeper. do you know even you go out with guys or talk to guy i will also jealous? is because i scare one day baby will find out i'm not good enough. i dun wan to quarrel with that sillygirl anymore le. Sorry baby! i know now u should be angry with me or hate me bah? hate me for being jealousy so high right? :) nvm, as long as baby i love you to the extend le no matter wad i will still be there for you de. and no matter wad difficulties problem you are facing in, i will always staying by your side and face toghether with you.

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Baby you are the lamp inside my heart, you light up my day.

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16 more days to our fifth month! i'm excited! cause i can finally bring baby to USS le! <3 and also can see baby being happy again le. :D

I Knows is My Fault For Holding You Until So Tight.

Helloooo Peoples, i'm back to blog again le (Y) did u guys miss me? HAHAHA.. let's start talking about my life about this few day bah. recently keep on quarrel with babygirl with a small tings. i know i may be holding u very tight. is because that i scared to lose you and is for ur own good. i didn't purposely or mean it to quarrel with you de babygirl! Sorry.. Is my fault who holding u until so tight! I may be not a good boyfriend to you but i will try my best to hold on to this r/s and never ever want to leave you. I promised you i will changed to a perfect and nice guy babygirl want. i will also trying to change my attitude towards you le. i know bbyy dun like people to attitude her de. Sorry baby! ): ytd pei babygirl to nigel sis bday. was enjoying with babygirl during there althought we have not enough sleep and rest. i just wanna pei babygirl for a long period. hopefully babygirl will be happy when i pei her go there and not to let her thinks that i hen Mafan. shall end here le. BYES!~

Baby, 10more days to our anniversary ah! (L) ♥ I'm looking forward to that day! Hope that day baby will be happy! ILOVEYOU. ♥

HOW I WISH I CAN 24/7 HUGGING BABYGIRL! ):

helloooo, i'm back to blog again le! got any reader miss me? :P. let's skip the intro le i know it's lame ah! :3 recently alot ting happen! hais, let's skip this le. ytd babygirl come my workplace and fetch me off work at around 10 plus. i was happy when my babygirl know how to come! ^^ after that i and babygirl tgt walk go to home and i nid to bath hao le me n her went to vivo to meet mikki they all because that day is the last day of mikki staying in singapore le.. i will always rmb this brother in my life because he always make us laugh n help us. plus we always play maximum tune tgt. BROTHER take care of urself in thailand ah! ♥ we reach vivo le i n  babygirl n our clique ppl watch suckseed! is a funny movie yet i enjoy watching it with my babygirl and brother. my babygirl yet still cry in movie because of something sad in the movie! OMGZXC... help her wipe tears away. MUHAHAHA! ♥ after the movie i n babygirl n jeremy sit jeremy dad cab home! his dad is damn friendly and yet dun nid to pay. HEHEHE! when we reach my hus area i n babygirl went to buy ting to eat after that eat hao le we jiu went off to sleep le, shall end here le. BYEBYE!~ :D

bbyy, no matter wad happen! i will still be there for you, no matter wad i won't leave u de. 17 more day to 4th month.. jiayous! i gonna take u go somewhere enjoy! (L) ♥

Why do time pass so fast during your happy moment.

hi reader, I'm back to blog again le! (Y) today never go sch again le due to i never sleep and was waiting for my babygirl the morning msg yet she also wake up late and never go school le. i was awake at 5 plus and i decided to find my babygirl at tampines! was at tampines with babygirl walk walk, eat eat! around after that the time is 10 plus le! why do time past so fast?! ): was bringing babygirl home and i and her hug during that moment i dun feel like leaving her or going home! i wish i can stay near my babygirl house le! hais, after that babygirl have walk home le and i secretly go one corner to see her walk home than i can fang xin to walk to mrt to take train home le. should end here le! babygirl wanna see my new post! (Y)

Bbbyy, no matter wad! i will still love you and won't get bored of u de kay?! ♥

我管你到很紧不是因为我不爱你，是因为我怕会失去你.

Hellooo, i'm back to blog again le! (Y) 23August is the sad and hurtful day for me le. Was quarreling with my babygirl about some stuff and we both take old tings come out talk than quarrel until i n her break. I will always rmb this date and this timing le 6.50pm. I was like shag, sad, heart pain, no mood. somemore when i was with my friend slacking that time i feel like crying it out loud or dropping tears le but i didn't after that i went to toliet to wash my face and i told myself that if this 'I'm gonna be fine and won't cry for girl le' yet i can't do it.. i feel hurtful and i drop tears in the toliet. after that i wash my face and went back to find my frenz. i told them that i'm not feeling well i go home first. after leave my frenz i went back home to cry and make myself to don't cry! but i can't do it. than i decided to run MIA for a period of time. yet i out of sudden miss her and feel like going her house and find her but i didn't. its because she say i hurt her until too deep le and i dun wan her to get hurt anymore that why i didn't go. Hais! went down for a walk to cheer myself up without bringing my phone along. when i was at my house area the garden, i stone at there and think back our happy memory and our laughter yet i drop tears again le. after few hour later i went home bath and than never eat jiu go to bed le. when i was on my bed i feel my bed vibrating so i pick my phone up and i saw she have given me 100 plus of miss call and 12 msg! yet she say she wanna patch back with me. i was like so happy and i have patch with her. 24August. Didn't went to school today because i want to meet my babygirl so she around 11 reach my hus! i enjoy resting with her n laughing tgt with her in my room. after that i and her fall asleep le around 3 plus my dad have call us to wake up just because he brought me chicken rice yet my babygirl she never eat. my mum have make bread with egg to give her eat and my sis have make milo for me n my babygirl! (L) after that i went to bath because i have work later on! after my work le i have call babygirl and scolded her because she say she is going home after seeing doctor! but shee didn't go home yet go find her frenz i was angry and talking loud to her. SRY BBYY! i didn't mean it de. Shi wo bu guo hao! wo shi ge huai dan de nan pengyouu. ILOVEYOU ALOT DO U KNOW IT? CAN YOU FEEL MY LOVE FOR YOU? Bbbyyyy! Bu yao always anyhow think le i truly love you n i never feeling fade! I PROMISE U KAY! GONNA STAY WITH U FOREVER KAY? EVEN IF WE DIE WE ALSO MUST HOLD EACH OTHER HAND AND DIE TOGETHER AH! (L) 

Bbyy, WE STILL GOT ALOT YEARS TO GO! HOPE TO REACH OUR FOUTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY! (L) ♥

I'm not gonna hurt babygirl anymore le! (L) ♥

helloooo, i'm back to update my blog due to my babygirl call me to update de because she wanted to see my new post! :D today went to tampines with fanglin to meet my babygirl and deona. fanglin and deona has started to eat tings at Tampines1 first than i was waiting for my babygirl to eat and see doctor finish! after tat babygirl and me started to become hungry and we have go eat long john sliver after awhile more deona and fanglin need to go off le! left me and babygirl... after they go off me n babygirl when to century square to slack. after tat i call zhen qiang to come down to play maxtune! after he come down le i have started to train my babygirl to play maxtune. when i was teaching her! i found out when she is playing game, she is so serious! MUHAHAHA.... she look cute n innocent when playing maxtune! :P wish babygirl can learn faster and peii me go for our clan match! (L) ♥ shall end here le. 


2 more day to 3rd month anniversary! (L) ♥

Sorry For Treating U So Badly.

helloooo, i'm back to blog again le! today is a tiring day for me le didn't go to school n yet sleep until so long make my babygirl anyhow think le! sry bbyy, sry for making u sad today! i know i'm not a good bf and i know u cannot feel my loved yet u still always be tgt with me! thank baby for the everything u gave me! I LOVE YOU!! i promised u i will make u feel love again le kay! sry bbyyy.... is my fault today le! pls forgive me and dun cry or think too much le kay?! LoveYou... (L) Muacks.. ♥ should end le! bah!~ BYEBYE.. :)

Bbyyy! 3 more day to our 3rd anniversary le!! (L) ♥

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only your loves one will leave footprints in your heart.

hellooo, i'm back to blog again le! Teeeheeee.... today when to tampines to look for my babygirl yet i have make bbyy angry and sad le! ): sry bbyy! is my fault for making you sad le is not ur fault kay! pls dun be tired in tis relationship! coz i really truely love u de! ): sry for making u feel unloved... i will try my best to make u feel loved de kay? cannot leave me ah! ): after our quarrel le, i and babygirl went to food court to eat dinner le. we have alot of fun spending time tgt! after eaten i bring my babygirl go slack than after awhile more i bring bbyyy back home. and i stalk her reach home le than i can started walking to mrt to take train back home. but today my babygirl is feeling unwell and tired! she went to sleep early... hope she wake up will be fine.. now i'm missing her le hais!~ shall stop here le.. :)

Time fly fast, treasure ur loves one with every sec, min and hours! (L) ♥

hellooo, i'm back to blog again le muhahaha! :3 enjoy my day with .wmt. member, my bbyyy n my clique ppl! having match with <cvc> people at plaza sing at 7pm but we lose to them by alot of marks! hais, nvm bah luckily is jus a friendly match! :) n ytd zhenqiang n jun liang quarrel about movie tingy n make my bby feel tat is her fault! but actually not her fault cause jun liang say all meet at plaza sing at 3 sharp but some ppl was late and say many excuses than after tat i was also late cause of my lazyness! >< hais, dun wan talk about tis anymore le! after our match at plaza sing we have another match with -H.K- but we have win them by 3marks! Teeheee... but after we all play finish maxtune le. we have gone to buy 2 movie ticket one is 12.30pm de movie other one is 2.30pm de. but bbyy onli watch one movie onli which is 12.30pm de (Digital) Rise O The Planet Of The Apes! i was shock when bbyy was crying is because of the apes die! hiyo, tis silly girl ah! help her wipe her tears than after the apes movie end le i went to bring bbyyy to take cab home! HEHEHE... :D than after tat i ownself went back to find my clique ppl to continues watch the second movie which is Zookeeper! :) tis zookeeper movie is nice too n is also very funny! LALALA!~ but i watch until half way i have fall asleep until the movie end! hais... wasted! sobsob... :'( should end here le... bye reader enjoy reading ah! :D


Bbyyy! 6more days to our 3rd month anniversary! (L) ♥

I'm falling in love with you deeper and deeper!

hellooooo, i'm back to blog again le! MUHAHAHA... today went down to pei my babygirl slack and eat! have fun with this silly girl for many many hours! heeheee... bbyyy, i know u dun have anytime for me but nvm bbyy! i will always find time go ur house to find you de. don't always anyhow think le la!~ i won't feeling fade de, dun worry bbyy! since i have choosen u. i will tiongxim you and be together with you until we old. i know i have think until very far but nvm! as long as ILOVEYOU jiu hao le! i wanna let u know u'r always mine and u cannot leave me without my permission. bbyyy rmb dun always say will get me into trouble, I not scare de cause I'M (AIZAI) heeeheeee... i have think hao le i'm gonna love you until we old kay? we will hold each other hand until old kay?! teeeheeee! (L) <3

10 more days to our 3rd Month Anniversary! (L) <3

Treasure your loves one truly.

hi people, i'm back to blog again! muhahaha... my babygirl wanna see my blog tat is why she keep on call me to update my blog! :B have been staying with bbyy for few days ago i'm so happy staying with her because she is cute n pretty! i love her alot, alot, alot. sry bbyy! for making u cry coz i on tat day really feel insecure tats is why i quarrel with u le.. sry! i didn't mean it de!! ): sry for making u deleted all ur contact in ur phone. now i know u really did not do anything bad ting behide me.. bbyyy ILOVEYOU!!! yesterday bbyy come my hus ton and we had alot of fun n eat tgt. but out of sudden my bbyy sis call her n scolded her for staying outside n my bbyy was like jitao dulan!~ her sis threaten my bby if she never go home she jiu will have probation n alot of ting will happen to her! hais, my poor bbyy nid to go back and setter it. after tat when she have left my hus area le i was like Hais, cannot ton with bbyy anymore le.. i feel like dropping tears of tat period of time. bbyy can u dun leave me! i nid u.. and please dun wei le yi dian ting jiu ku kay? yao jian qiang ah! i will always support ni de.. (L) bu yao say tat u scare i will get into trouble kay? coz i already get ready to face the consequent with u at anytime le. bbyyy! yao ji de wo hui ai ni dao yong yuan de! (L) i should end here le bah... bye bye!~

Sorry for not being a good boyfriend! ):

helloooo people, i'm back too blog again le... it has long time never blog since the last post is on dunno how many month le! ): i'm sry bbyy i have hurt u once again le! pls dun cut or do silly ting next time le kay?! i won't make u cry anymore le! although i sometimes break ur promises but i really hope tat u won't leave until the end. i know i'm not a perfect bf to u but i will try to be a perfect one. bu yao zai ku le hao mah?! ): i really regretting tat time at marina i did not pull u back to stay with me! i on tat time really very dulan coz i saw until i most taoyan de ren le.. ): sry bbyyy! shi wo bu hao.. qin ni yuan liang wo bahh! ):  lastly today have fun with bbyy at tampines mall n we have alot of fun on the roof top ah! :p u know i know onli ah? :P i today finally bring my precious babygirl go home le... (L) after tat on night time i was waiting for bbyyy to bath finish than after that we have went tampines mall again le to look for zhen qiang n one of my member! was having fun playing maxtune n kissing with bbyyy on the arcade ah!~ *SHY* MUHAHAHA..... hao le bah! should end here le bah. BYE BYE!~

I enjoy being with my loves one! ♥

hii people, i'm back to blog again. this few day never update my blog because i'm lazy to update and not free to update.. yesterday enjoying my day with baby and pangseh my bro jeremy! Sorry that i never go to your bbq! ): my baby girl yesterday is so damn freaking cute! she was high yesterday and she laugh until like there is no tommorow MAHAHAHA.... Crazzyyy girl!
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♥  and lastly I'm looking foward to our second month aniversary! hope time can pass fast and celebrate with her! ILOVEYOU baby girl! (L) <3

Thank bbyy for forgiving me yesterday! ILOVEYOU!! ♥

helloooo, i'm back to blog again! ytd was at sarangoon NEX shopping centre with bbyy and marcus was happy being with them ! but in the end i have play maxtune until make my baby girl angry and headache le.. I'M SORRY! ): next time won't le! I promised!! ): i was giving my leader possition to let marcus tan to take care and make it famous.  cause i wanna spend more time with baby girl than maxtune. ): shall end here le! Bye! :D

Baby , if i has to choose between loving you , and breathing . I would use my last breath to say I love you ,

HellooooEveryoneeee ! Nicoo is currently hacking hongyi account ! HAHAAHA , no la ! Helped him to edit his blogskin , Nice not ? :P Done by me (Y) ! Mahahaha , silly boy , like it not ? p.s la , got a bit plain plain de but i took a lot of effort kay !  Saw your blog post , no worries kay , I was not angry for your late reply and thanks for being such a great boyfriend ! I'm so touched by you, you this big fat pig so lazy still will cr8 blog just for me . Sorry for falling aslp and ended up not meeting you ! DuiBuQi ! Just want you to know I enjoy every moment , every min , every second I'm spending with you .  You are always there when I needed you . Had a great time with you for the past few days . You are the last piece of my puzzle , you completed my heart . Rmb kay , You are Loved♥ ! WoAiNi (L) 

Don't ever leave your loves one! ♥

Hey, Hey, Hey! i'm back to blog again. Today was a boring day i ever had, sleeping whole day in my lovely bed.. Omgzxc! Do i look like a pig? hehehe... texting with my baby girl the whole day too! sry for the late reply!  ♥  hope u won't angry with me. Tomorrow is the day i go to school hopefully my DM or teacher won't cut my hair.. plus after school, i'm going to tampines to look for my loves one hope she won't fall asleep again.  ♥   IMISSHER! she have fall asleep le. ): i shall end here and went to sleep again le. BYE READER! :D

VICTORY! (Y)

hellooo, i'm back to blog again! this few day i'm lazy to update my blog. on ytd i went to my last session of my counseling after that i went to marina square to have maximum tune clan match! we have won *DwS* by a lot of point. we were very happy and laugh until very loud at arcade, thanks Tan Chuan for pei-ing me to marina square! (Y) he is a nice guy, he always spon me cig when i did not bring mine! THANKYOU BRO!! (: After that match i went down to tampines to look for my baby girl but unforturnally when i reach there my baby girl have fallen asleep, Sadded! cannot meet her. I Miss Her a lot, but nevermind this coming tuesday gonna meet her le! YAY!!!! hope time can pass faster.. cause i can't wait to meet my baby girl! <3 i will end here le bye bye. :D

Don't judge book with cover!

Today wake up in afternoon than straight to mikki chua ming cong house saw fanglin was at his house le, after that we went to eat something! after eating we when to plaza sing to have our maximun tune training. i have spended 30 dollar on training... *oops* around night time i and my member was having training, got two idiot guy thought we are a noob than come in and VS us. in the end they wasted a lot of money plus dulan and walk away.. YAY! (Y) thats why i say dun jugde a book with cover. lastly tmr meeting my baby girl in tampines at 5pm wish i won't be late! i miss her so much! finally can meet until her le. (Y) shall end here and when to sleep le.. BYE BYE! :D